There’s something about going on an official diet that… makes me feel like I need to eat everything sweet. And it makes me feel bloated, for like each diet. When I went on the keto diet, well – that wasn’t fun.
Recently, I was inspired by a YT channel called Mind over Munch to go, finally, on the whole 30. The major reason because there was a set meal plan, and that was my biggest hold up. I was just being quite lazy about putting together meals, and recipes and a shopping list, and having a plan about what I was going to eat – that kind of thing. But, there’s 2 factors that I feel like are already contributing to my failure on day 1. Maybe 3. One of them is a bit tmi. Maybe.
One, since whole 30 has so many rules, I’m in this mindset in which I feel like I need to eat everything that’s sweet or find an alternative that’s sweet. I know that on whole 30, there’s no snacking. But I was just giving myself an exception (already!), like “Oh, I’m just starting out. I’ll eat W30 compliant type snacks. So I was, like, stuffing Lara bars into my face as if that was my only available sustenance.
Two, I started this whole 30 today, totally forgetting that there’s a holiday party coming up in 2 weeks. And I know myself enough to know, that yes, I will be consuming alcohol and if there’s food, yeah, I’m gonna be eating it because it’s all free. So. Why not.
Three, so usually when I go on these diets, I feel really bloated. And I don’t know if that’s a thing, or if i’m feeling bloated right now b/c I’m on my period. I’m not sure.
Either way, (I know i sound like i’m just straight up giving up, but unlike keto, where I fell all the way off the cliff and just said fuck it) I think I’m just gonna take a step back and not impose so much on myself. It’s not like I eat out everyday, or eat a lot of “junky” food – but y’know I do eat pizza, and burgers, and especially sweets.
So I think for me, I need to try to just start being more mindful more mindful and shifting my eye – my food eye- so that I’m not using sugar to satisfy me, and recognizing when I’m actually hungry and not eating just because my stomach feels slightly weird, or because I’m bored. Just being more in tune w/ my body.
And I feel like knowing that when the party comes around, I’m not even going to pretend to try to resist eating and drinking, there’s the thought ‘oh I’m going to restart’ in the back of my mind, y’know. And it’s giving me “freedom” to be more loose.
I think for now, I’m just gonna stat small. For me, that’s cutting out sugar. When the party comes, I’ll do my thing, and going back to normal, without thinking I just nosedived into the through all the circles of hell, straight into the devil’s mouth.
Ok. That was dramatic.
liebesonne 